Deviant

You know when you hear that tune, that atmosphere that gives you the shivers. The uprising of it made me know, that, that was it. When it slows down and drops me into a ocean of tremolo, delay, synthesizer, bass and non touchable sound I saw it coming. It was just natural. I shivered.

Our new song has no name, neither is it done. But the three minutes of it, this far made me shiver. Ahh it felt so good.
On the balcony where it looked like something just fell from the sky we talked about how we're supposed to continue the shivers. Me and Elvis, almost simultaneously answered that we practically was satisfied with it as it was. We felt so good with it. Right now we're maybe doing on of our best songs and we'll se how it will end up.

In quite some time I have felt quite down. I do not really know why. But what I know is that it has given a effect on the band. But last night i realized that it couldn’t go on, 'cause it's affecting other people but me. You know, you can't be in one state of mind if it's giving a negative effect on other people, that's my opinion. I've been irritated on small crappy things and couldn’t really see the good things amongst all the irritation I saw as more important. It sounds really shitty, and it is. Sometimes we have these periods and it seems that I always have them in the summer.

I will now try to explain the interpretations of what and why it's been this way. Trying to explain one's mind is not always that easy. Because there are always tons of different values and factors that gives an impact of how you sum it all up, sometimes even the smallest things make me doubt. I feel numb and in one way gives up. Someone else's doing the job much better. Get it? Every now and then people are looking for acknowledgement because often in some sort of manic disorders they have this complexity of and in their preferences of themselves. My biggest issue is that when I'm not involved, I sometimes generate the feeling of being left out. And the lack of praise sometimes gets me even further down in it. This is completely fiction. I am not looking for more commandment than others but still, I need it in someway of confirmation of doing a good job. It's all mixed up inside of the blob between my shoulders.

I know that we don't have these childish tendencies of leaving someone out. Just in behave of some sort of revenge. Some people do that and I can't understand why. I think I've tried at least to make my self clear about that. But, I don’t know if you've become any smarter or understood a word that I just said. But I hope that those who need to understand it and didn't understand, reads it one more time.

In a week or so we'll have our next rehearsal and then, we are going to produce the best song we've ever written. And yeah, don't forget to log on to http://joyzine.se/?p=3546 and read our new review. It's our third review and we're happy of everyone of them, we learn from them.

victor.

Pensées

Sometimes I feel harsh, sometimes I feel like I just want to leave everything and lie down into the ditch. When my ambitions to create music and feel it race through my veins slumber, I feel like I just want to let go. And these so called times happends to ascend.

Some weeks ago I felt I didn't wanted to play in the band anymore. Everything was dead to me, no respect, no prosperity with the relations in the band. I felt like everyone didn't really wanted this to be. And those kind of thoughts lowered me down under the surface of a ocean. These times happends to be false alarm and it turns out that my head had played me a game. Maybe this is my personality's darker side, the aspects of my mind happends to create distorted realities. And at the end, I realized that it is was all a doublefaced cogitation of my behaviour in the ways of my living. Everything I do, no sleep, no homeworks being done, drinking, smoking and eating unhealthy did affect my behaviour and my realtions to other beings. And myself.

But, there's always a but. These reactions maybe have been caused by the past, maybe the past has being shaping my life. And yes it has. I'm happy to be the one I'm today and the side effects of what it has brought is in my opinion both a negative and positive impact in my personality. Maybe I'm to generous by giving you the people these kind of facts but it feels like it has facilitated the way I'm as a person, how I handle situations and respond to people. People think that the past can't shape your future but it does clearly.

Now I'm talking jibberish, but I wanted to tell you that sometimes I feel that this life has nothing to give me in return of what I'm doing. But these stupid thoughts plays me just a another strange trick, it's trying to send me down there, somewhere where nothing exists. it is strange that all this negative mass that is so, so, so small can take over so much of the positive mass life is creating every second. never give up, everything you do may not be valueable for living, but you live to exist and live to live a life. That is why you and I was born, to be and to feel.

This opportunity of being creating music has in ways saved me and the members has keeping me going and supported me. Escpacially one person and you know who you're. Up and downs has showed us what we want to do and in which path it has lead us onto is ours to create. I really want this to last forever. Everytime I enter the stage with our histories to show, this feeling of being immortal and important appears in my eyes. That our purpose of the music has a beneficial factor to all of you and maybe I'm wrong with this but that is why I'm doing this. To express and show, to live a life of mine, to give you a performance that gives a impact, both both mentally and physically.

My english is quite bad, I think I have been writing maybe 25 % of understandable text. But as always, it's the thoughts that are measured, not the superficial perfect face that is important. To much is maybe to less and the contrasts of it, nothing is right when thoughts are being asked of. Now I'm going to sleep, the only three things I'm thinking of is maybe this text has revealed to much of the state I was in that period, why I didn't took care of my school when I had the time and of a girl my heart has been sent away to. She's beautiful and full of grace, both sides, internal and external.

And yesterday we played at a festvial called "Yeah! 09 Festivalen" which took place in the city of Örebro. It went no good. Instruments were broken and because of that we got only 10 minutes on the stage. Our drummer went furious and throwed his drumsticks all over the place and yes I understand him quite a lot. As compensation, we got a gig later in the autumn this year. But there were good times as well. We had a photosession and finally got a band promo picture. Just look at the pic on the top of this blog post and you'll see it. Laughs and yells were thrown out but in big strokes it was a good day for us. It felt a little like we came a little closer together, it has recently seemed a little tense between all in the band and I hope it will mend its ways by the future.

By the way, Mono and World's End Girlfriend's collaboration is stunning. Their album called "Palmless Prayer/Mass Murder Refrain" is silently flushing my emotions down the gutter of dispute hatred and love. And also by the way, check out my procject's new demo called "Rites of Coriolis". Hope you like it. http://www.mediafire.com/download.php?hmr23ndmy2d



love elvis

Review #1

Seven days prior this day I discovered a real cool postrock/shoegaze/experimental blog. The man behind it was hooked up by the community http://last.fm. I tipped him of our new demo and we received a cool review that we are very fond of.

The Glass Forrest is a new founded (of what I know) blog. The person behind it reviews different genres. From ambiance to experimental rock/metal. I guess the limitation is none, except that the music is good though.

He has a perfect purpose with the blog. As he says on the first post himself "we present passionated and yet unknown experimental bands from each sub genre, from ambient to post-rock, metal to hip-hop and also the more unknown genres which costed a lot too much time to mention here too." I like it!

So check out The Glass Forrest and don't forget to check our review out

http://www.glassforest.blogspot.com/

http://glassforest.blogspot.com/2009/05/deviniance-tempora-mutantur-nos-et.html

victor.

Studio #3

Patience, patience and again, patience. Of course we were eager to finish the tree-track demo. But for me it actually felt quit good with a break. Not because it was dull or that I was sick of it. Basically it was pleasent to have a rest and just have a nice break.

Yesterday was a handfull of happening-day. People were wrecking themselves with gallon after gallon. Not with water, yes, alcohol. I abstained from it because I wanted all prerequisets on my side.

Friday morning: My goodmorning clock was saying Cult Of Luna - Curse, awesome song by the way. At Slakthuset I did not expect that anyone would come because of yesterdays activities. Just as perfect as Elvis shoegazing was, Torkel showed up. Sunny as the weather was today as sunny was Torkel, he helped me and guided me through my vocals.

Everything was now set for mixing and due some arguing me and Torkel are satisfied. You can all enjoy a free copy at: http://www.megaupload.comd=C7DTN5BN

Studio #2

Last night we thought we would be done with our three song demo, we were wrong.

I arrived exactly 9:59 at Slakthusets studio. I had a goodnight sleep and felt pretty siked about recording the first guitar sounds. For starters Håkan and I tried to find the perfect clean sound. We did not find it, we did find a pretty good one though. The intro in "A Slow Decay" was first to go and we did not bother using a metronome because it is 9/8 rate. The clock was suddenly 1 ó clock and my fingers were bleeding. Rikard and I started to take turns whos turn it was to record the guitar. The guitar sound came out pretty good. Of course it should be awesome, but that’s pretty impossible in that sort of studio. But it sounds better than the last time though.
As we have written in our MySpace blog we welcomed Elvis a couple months earlier. This was the first time in studio with him, which was cool. The piano was no problem for Elvis, he used his skills as he should do as a piano/noise dude.

We like to mixture with sounds that creates feelings and vibes. That is what Elvis do, he provides that extra feeling to the sound and band, he is creating that "top of the edge" feeling you know. Everything went well and Elvis work was done, perfectly. Next off were the vocals. I was pretty nervous because it is such a big part of me. It is quite easy to lay your criticism on one of the singers, obviously. Again that day was over and we had to schedule another day to lay the final vocals and finalize/mix the songs. Friday the 1st of May will be day when our demo will free for downloading, keep in touch!
/Victor

I am totally exhausted. A bulldozer has run over me.. No it has not but it actually feels like it.

Last night we opened in behaves of Endorphins. At 9 ó clock roughly 50 people jostled down in the back of MS Linné, it felt awesome with a big audience. We opened with the song “Cease And Heal” and played trough a repertoire of five songs, our show ended with “Allegory”. It felt like people appreciated our show, and we certainly did enjoy it, even if our last rehearsal was one week prior. We are grateful for the show last night, thanks Endorphins.

The 23rd of April we started to record our demo” Tempora mutantur, nos et mutamus in illis” Which basically means “As the ages changes, so do we change”. It will include tree songs, Curriculum Vitae, Cease and heal and A Slow Decay. It will be free for downloading.
We did kick off by recording the drums. By gathering the best drum parts from two different kits we achieved an awesome sound. Definitely the best Slakthusets studio can produce. The whirl was whirling and the cymbals were giving the perfect atmosphere that cymbals should do, it felt pretty awesome. After some hours of plugging everything into what it was supposed to be connected with we finished the drum parts for each song.

The clock was running faster than Torkel was smoking cigarettes and suddenly it was time to go home. Today was a good day, we achieved good material and tomorrow we will finish it. We will make use of everything that we can.
Victor.

Sneak A Peak

At the Youthhood releaseparty-gig we recorded the entire show. Basically we did use five camcorders that our nice comrades lend us. With four camcorders in different angles and Jimmie on the loose with one of the better camcorder we actually received superb material.

This is mainly a way of letting you know how we'll look on stage and a way for us, Deviniance knowing how cool respective ridiculous our approach is on stage.
When I was setting up all the cameras I forgot to maintain some sort of basic sound in the beginning. That sound would help me when I was editing and synchronized all five cameras. It's been quite a drama putting all of it together. Right now, I've almost finished "Cease And Heal". There are still some synchronizing to go but all in all I am heading for the new song "A Slow Decay".

This "sneak a peak" was basically an idea from Elvis. Not the real Elvis, 'caus he's dead right? Although, I said to Elvis that "I am almost finished with editing "Cease And Heal". He replied with "Haven't you got a have a sneak a peak?". At that moment I did not have a sneak a peak for Elvis. But in eager to please my dear Elvis i kicked of Vegas and took two different clips from "Cease and heal" and put it together..

victor